Who am I? Today, I know myself as Koh Wen Jun, Eugene, 16, Vice-President of the Chung Cheng High School (Main) English Drama Society, classmate of 1MD'07, 2MD'08, 3BN'09, 4BN'10, Member of the Ching Cheng High School Audio Visual Aids Club... Just that I was never a councillor.
I haven't been supportive of the councillor board these few years I've been in Chung Cheng. For that whole time I saw myself to be greater than any of the councillors in the board, for I know I follow rules to the letter, and the ones I actually broke, like not handing up homework on time, most of them did too. But, I missed so much of the fun... That bonding which looked so akin to EDS... That sense of belonging...
I don't know how to start this, but it is not sufficient to say I hate the men who rejected my application into the councillor board. Councillor board 2007 Top 6 now seemed like a bunch of hypocrites to me... I hate them, despise them, ridicule then for not giving me that chance. I was an eligible man, and I still am!
Throughout the years I have heard many a story from my friends in the board. I listened with so much envy, but I disdained it. I hated them. But I directed the hate to the wrong people.
Love came, I hoped she wouldn't get into the board. But she did. I was so sad. Sad. Sad.
I know so many people in the board. To them I'm a no one, a man who was deemed none... But in my heart I wanted to be with them, in their ranks to serve the school... But my 4 years of secondary school was gone...
Mr Chua approached me last year, near the end of the year. He asked me whether I wanted to be in the board. I rejected. I regret it. I could have made a change, or could have I? What mattered...?
WHY DIDN'T YOU GIVE ME THIS CHANCE???
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