Well that's that.

So now... End of Sec 3... Next year Sec 4...

Looking back on those years, I hated sec 1, disliked sec 2 and I loved sec 3 the most. Guys, 3BN, you shall be in my heart as the benevolent guys :D (Along with Mr. Zaid :D)

Drop to Express liao... No more that "Special" feeling to my name... Sigh. Oh well, I wasn't cut out for Chinese anyway. A quarter of Euro blood in me did the shit xD

Three shows to act in and direct this holiday season. No time to chat alot liao: A lot to do!

Chabot :D

Eugene

Idee Stupide...

Fabri Fibra ftw man.

A little poem...

Yes I don't seem to write poems nowadays... But I'll give it my best shot.

Dedicated to Jeanelli (For complimenting my poems :D)

"The Hound"
By Eugene Koh

Here and now,
My love abound,
I wish it to be found,
In the solemn midnight, oh how silent is the hound!

I'm reaching out to you,
Falling over you.
I'm seeing beyond reality,
Wishing beyond seas of rationality.

They say that fools rush in,
But the wisest always win.
Though I be a fool, a great one at that,
Allow me, my humble self, kiss your hand.

I am, the hound.

Well, well, well...

Never thought life would be this hard...

So many choices...

Temptations galore...

I'm not alone...

But why does it feel so...?

I leave it unanswered...

I hope you can reveal it to me...

Yourself...

Life...

So this is how it is.

I killed a bug yesterday.

It was on the dining table.

So unfeelingly I did squish the bug with a tissue paper.

Then it's gone.

A life.

Like my life, like any of my friend's life.

Then I realized this is the basis of all our arrogance.

The ability to kill and destroy almost anything.

Why so sad?

Exams finish today... Yay...

Went to Aljunied. I looked back into GMPS. It's hard trying not to remember the past. He's dead. My Primary 3 self. He's long dead already.

A few primary schools students played at the fitness corner. Mitchell... Means... Lau... Jasper... Yes I remember those four houses. How strange, they used to be a part of me.

The surroundings looked so familiar... Yet foreign.

The library looked almost the same: But something tells me it isn't. Is it because the third floor is locked? Or are there some books that weren't there already? I'll never know...

Anyways this is what I plan to do for the holidays:

1) Learn Russian.
2) Limit 1 hour of computer time per day
3) Read all of the big three totalitarianism fiction stories. (1984, Fahrenheit 451, Brave New World)
4) Finish filming Daniel Got Double Laced

Which reminds me, I got to write the script fast.

Chabot.

How bad do you want it?

Of course, I knew this would come. Nothing lasts forever.

She wouldn't even dare to look at me.

She wouldn't even care.

Snobber.

She wouldn't sit behind were I stood for the likes of her.

But she did.

What the hell is she thinking?

...

I couldn't say that how much I've changed nowadays. Literature was great yesterday. But while the poem "Cardboard" by Aflain Sa'at was really nice, it kinda disturbed my thoughts periodically. There are those out there who are much worse off than us. Then why on earth do we even think that we are the most troubled?

I'm going out with Ser Jean on Tuesday. :D So happy.

Gotta be going off to school to mug.

Gotta chabot.

Yesterday Once More...

Today I went to the library. (I know, not much of a starter but still)

I kinda learned that I could borrow books that I wanted to actually buy. I borrowed Ray Bradbury's "Fahrenheit 451". Burning books... Sounds a lot like some Chinese Emperor?

(Gotta rush this blog post so yeah don't mind the crap)

So two things happened:

1) I saw Richard Dawkin's "The God Delusion". I was so tempted to borrow the book. I wanted to open it and read it on the spot... But well, life's like that. Always no time. And the fact that my mother knows the word "delusion". Where are the times where I did not have any censor to what books I can read?

2) I saw Chris Bestie. She looked happier. At least from the last time I saw her she looked happy and round :P. But she changed a lot since P4. I don't know why but I hovered around her, just checking that she's still there. Maybe regret surfaced. Or maybe it's that old school feeling. Either way, I know she's important still. But I could not be with her. Her emotions and thoughts are different from mine.

Gotta chabot. Tmr got E History and Maths.

You wish...

So innocent...

It was tough enough to get 250...

And my bro's thinking to beat me

He just like started really studying this half of the year...

I was put through that shit since P5 man.

Oh well...

Seriously my father offers him 500 bucks to get 250

Must be those type of deals which purpose is to be only a goal

Coz it's really nt possible...

Idee Stupide...

Stupid ideas...

Sigh...

I feel like prisoner behind bars...

I shout, I scream and no one hears...

But I'm not alone...

There are those who's prisons are harder than mine...

Colder than mine...

Harsher than mine...

Thinking of them makes me feel I'm lucky...

I am lucky...

Ho hum...

Well that's it, the end of this weekend.

Just yesterday I called Ser Jean.

Hehe her cousins teased her about me being her "boyfriend" >.<

Well, what do you expect out of that?

Today my mother locked the Macbook.

Luckily she didn't know how to turn on screen-saver lock: It was only a password change.

Still I can't install Final Cut Express 4

Damned. That looks really cool.

Should be on hiatus and studying.

But I'm really not.

Sigh...

A date gone bland...

Sigh... Thought it'll be something like a one-to-one thingy... In the end she got a few friends along...

At least I got to see her other side a bit more...

Hey she's cute okay...

But the two other girls distracted me too much...

I had to laugh along with all of them, I couldn't really focus on her...

Geez, better luck next time.

At least, at least, this's the beginning.

OMG?

Eugene says: "Oh my god" in the Hui Min accent

Did I really just do it?

Or is it bound to be another "you wish" sorta thing?

Or is it really true?

It seems to be true.

I asked.

She said yes.

So just like that.

A date.

Did I really do it?

Oh my goodness.

I think I really did.

More stunned than happy.

:X