Buay tahan...

I know, this is like the second time today. But really, if one don't have an outlet for stress, then how to survive?

My goodness this monologue is really maddening me. Looking at 31 prospective chat partners on facebook and even more on MSN, I can't find someone to really talk with. I am really going insane. I'm really typing out rubbish here, it just comes off my head. I'm not even thinking about what I'm going to write. I hate christianity. Really they really suck. It's just plain Hitler buttered-up.

I don't know but religion and relationships irks me nowadays. Two things I can never accept, while I can never avoid. My fingers are hurting.

Here's a joke: I dreamt of working in a bakery last night with Mr. Teo. Oh my goodness was I tempted to run away. Then I saw her. Then I started running. Then every step became like... I think I said it in the previous post. I hate it. I like the dream but I don't like the message it's getting to me. There's one time I dreamt of a tsunami and I was in the wave. I keep going up for air but the wave just keep going up and up. I feel breathless. I woke up. I was really suffocating myself. How dumb can that be.

Argh my mother is gonna play that bloody christian internet radio. All about improving one's lives. Blind, blind, blind. Can't they see that it is a selfish religion with a selfish god? Can't they see that? Can't they help those around them? What fuckers these fools be!

My fingers are tired. I hate this. Fuck my mother is commenting on the news again. I don't like this. This is okay but it's getting unbearable. Everyday is the same stuff: Making a fool of myself, doing well in class to scrape through, acting as though everything is fine, being a mentor to a lot of people. This sucks, really sucks. No one actually appreaciates. But who ever does? Man, I'm really crapping shit down here. i should really study social studies. man it's getting stupid. yea i'm losing my punctuations. okay its getting worse worse worse and worse i think this is not going good oh geez york hao just signed in md ppl suck they suck big time they think theyre so great to burning hell each and every one of them wait i don't believe in hell fuck i dnot care shut up i'm sleeping